The first time I remember feeling fear I was about 4 years old. I was being dragged up the stairs of our home as punishment for something I don’t remember.
I remember feeling numb. My whole body felt like it wanted to throw up. The panic and nausea was a full-bodied experience. I couldn’t connect the dots. I had no idea what I had done that could possibly deserve so much anger and violence being directed at me. I couldn’t comprehend how this person who was supposed to love me, was being so violent with me. I didn’t understand why I wasn’t being protected.
As an adult, when I feel fear now, I often feel this full-bodied nausea, especially if I think I might have done something wrong.
When I feel this, I turn towards my little girl. I turn towards my body and the fear. I get curious. I slow down.
“I’m here, I’m with you. I’m not going anywhere. You are so loved and protected. I’ve got you.”
For all of those feeling fear right now – sending love. Take a deep breath and breath it in.
All my love, Jen
I feel guilty. I am divorced for 7 yrs.i have 2 boys, 27 and 20. ..my ex and I have a volatile relationship…I have told him to stay away from me…my boys live with me. They dont want anything to do with him at all…its fathers day and I feel like it’s my fault that they dont want anything to do with him.
I did ask them if they would like him to come over for the day..they said no.
I still have this feeling that I need to Fix this situation..even though I know I cant and it’s not my responsibility to do so…could I ask for some advice please
Thank you for reaching out, these things are not easy, it can be helpful to discuss this with a professional. looking at your need to fix could be hugely beneficial for all your family. sending you much love Jen