It started back in Australia. I thought, “I’m just sitting too much.”
So I walked every day. Did hip-opening yoga. Tried to fix it physically.
But when I got to India… it got worse. Yesterday, I couldn’t get comfortable at all.
So I paused. And I got curious.
It suddenly felt like more than physical pain. It felt… energetic.
Then I realised — it was my dad’s birthday.
If he were alive, he would have been turning 101.
I got still and gently moved toward the pain. And then I saw her… me, as a little girl, trying so hard to connect with him.
The grief came in waves. I could feel how blocked he was… and how hard I was trying. I felt so much compassion for both of us.
Then something shifted.
I saw him as a soul — full of light, free from all his limitations. We smiled at each other.
And he began to move away… into a bright white light. There was so much love between us.
Energy moved through my body — especially my throat and heart. My throat was pounding as he left.
And then… quiet. Relief. Another letting go.
24 hours later, the pain in my hips is gone.
After months of trying to fix my body… the block was somewhere else entirely.
I have to smile at how long it took me to stop and get curious.
This feels a little vulnerable to share, but I trust it will land with the person who needs it.
Have you ever noticed your body holding something that wasn’t just physical?
Sending love from India,
Jen 🪷
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